I had plans for NYE this year but well I can't go with her anymore lol so I'm kinda just hoping that NYE comes and goes without much fuss.

One good thing about getting ghosted/dumped whatever you call it is that I've been listening to a lot of my old favourite music that that I haven't heard for a while; a lot of Mobb Deep yesterday and right now the neighbour's kids are getting introduced to M.O.P. although I'm constantly checking my phone for a message I'll never receive so I need to somehow get that habit out of my system. I like how hip hop builds a mad foundation of confidence within me and I've noticed I'm all good mentally when I start listening to more of it; music is weird like that with me.

Someone in the family was like how come you don't come out with us more often you're funny it's cool to have you here etc that was pretty nice of them to say I should probably kick it with the family more often instead of hermitting