Why can only other people have the authority to say that my mind is wrong

Well it doesn't bother me any more. Back then I worried about it all the time but I've just decided to embrace these thoughts and it's literally changed my life for the better. My depression has completely lifted in the first time in my life, and my productivity along with it.

I'm just confused as to why coming to terms with something like this, and being completely suicidal and happy for it is met with such disdain. If all the people I've spoken to about it seem to treat me like scum. They just want me to get psychological help, but if they truly understood what I was feeling, they would know that I should really just go and continue in the way I'm going.

I came here more as a rant about all this, and maybe find someone who thought similar. I just don't understand why people, even very open minded people, don't seem to understand what's best for me and just assume that not being suicidal is automatically better than being suicidal. Talking about stuff like this doesn't seem to go down well in other kinds of subreddits, so that's why I brought it here.

Sorry for the confusion

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