This is exactly how I feel too. I was treated the same way - except it was far more brutal.
My ugly nose. My ugly jaw. My ugly face. I was terrible and evil for existing. I should kill myself (but not in the house, because no one wants to clean up the body).
"No one cares that you got raped" - that was a fun one to hear
"You probably deserved it." "You probably wanted it".
"You're gross, ugly, and terrible".
"You're lucky I talk to someone like you at all" - My Mom (I'm transgender)
"Fucking kill yourself allready" - My father, before going on about how excess leg hair is his favorite fetish.
"You make on ugly bitch" - My father once again - who tried to rape me 15 years later once he said he was wrong. I guess that was "nice"?
Not to mention the lovely things my step mother told me while she was sexually abusing me, when I was 11 years old:
"Your parts are like a fucking pigs"
"You're a little a fucking monster", as she shoved my fingers into her really gross vagina.
Little things like that.
What about physical abuse?
"Its ok if I hit you, because you're not a real girl" - my friend "mike", before punching me in the head. He weighed about 200 pounds more than me, by the way.
"Shut your god damn mouth" - My father, before punching me in the face repeatly with his ring hand.
Plus just little things like:
"Hey girl, you want some dick" - Random homeless guy last night.
"People like you are evil and corrupt, and untrustworthy" - Various radical feminists.
"Don't be such a chavenistic pig" - My mother's reaction, to me trying to tell her about my step mom raping me as a child
And then, anyone else's reaction to these stories....is LAUGHTER.
Laughter, because its funny.
Because it doesn't matter.
Because I don't get to count as human being.
So....."four eyes"?
FOUR EYES? ARE YOU SHITTING ME?
That's your deep, dark secret?
If you kill yourself, over someone calling you four eyes - I am going to go to your funeral, and laugh at you.
Because that is barely even an insult.
Four eyes? Fucking christ.
God, I wish someone had said that to me. lol.
That like, isn't even that big of a deal, right?
Can we PLEAS