Thank you for trying. It's kind to try.

You say your family won't care, who will find you dead on the floor? Who will clean your brains off the wall? The owner of the gun will surely be affected by this, and he'll live with this regret for the rest of his life. You'll inflict so much pain to those around you

my family cares about me. I don't care much about them. its sad that i will traumatize people, but i dont know that its enough tos top me. who knows. i'm a coward so i'll probably chicekn out.

Even if your family doesn't like you, you need to be the better person and prove that you can be a productive member of society, and that you're better than all of them. Wouldn't that be the sweeter revenge?

I can't. because i can't, and I'm not. I dont care about reenge. not doing this for revenge.

There is SO much to do in the world. So much to see. Travel. Read. Learn a new skill. You can literally travel through Europe on 15€ a day and experience an entire new world. If you don't have something to live for, then find something to live for

Some of us dont have 15 a day.

If you don't have something to live for, then find something to live for.

There isn't anything.

I'm no good at this, but there are people that can help.

ther aren't. not for me. there is nothing anyone could say or do tht would change anything for me

Call a hotline, it's a Google search away

I have no interest in having the police show up at my house in an hour and throwing me in a squad car to take me to a psych ward and lock me up and drug me until I swear that i'm a good little boy and will be obedient and never do anything bad again.

There is nothign that can help. but thnk you. you are a nice person.

Thank you for triyng though. it was kind.