urban dictionary:

Beta males: they lack of the physical presence, charisma and confidence of the Alpha male.

I've always been shy and deeply introverted. I've always felt as though I've had to project my voice in an effort to be noticed (when, in fact, I was speaking at a normal social volume). I've always felt trapped in second guessing and a failure to articulate myself fully/efficiently. The deeper my introspection might feel on a given day the more muddied my real message has been at first blush to newcomers throughout our social interactions. I am 25 and I've now learned to string my body along for terrifying displays of "confidence". I work to indulge and embellish. I work to make mistakes and to actively embarrass myself. I work deliberately to smile and to laugh with sincere abandon. These are skills needed by people with cautious dispositions. The funny thing is, I feel just as guarded on a stage with an audience in the thousands as I would on an intimate/secluded date. I do not have trouble meeting new people. I do not have trouble finding attraction in valuable partners. I do not struggle to appear charismatic. It just feels taxing to deal with certain types of personalities. There is a grating sense of responsibility an introvert feels as though they were sharing the reigns of a conversation in an effort to exact quality control. Commonly a conversation is shared with unwieldy personalities which are really only beholden to how their feelings are influenced or their by surroundings. Surprise conversations with very specific types of people can be jarring. Confusion in that situation can mean losing the moment to chaos. An introvert appropriates their behavior with plans and schemes and will often choose to be reclusive either socially or emotionally by default to evade responsibility. Don't be fooled by social media about "beta"s or about introverts or social incompatibles or social ineptitudinals (word?), there isn't any single recipe for dealing with any one of the multitude of breeds or flavors or sources of introversion. It is usually that which apparent introverts will say in defense of "all introverts" which has been the source of many of the gravest misconceptions and piss poor social policies involving their supposed "community". Being socially affluent, being socially effective, isn't limited to being an exclusive option on a palate held by extroverted charismatics (word?). Being effective socially is something we should all take personal responsibility for, and to acknowledge it as a priority for growth is your only true responsibility supposed 'versions' aside. So many introverts seem to want others to accommodate them as though they suffered from blindness or diabetes (type 1). There is something to that, but the sad fact is that becoming a successful version of ourselves in a world containing extroverts will almost necessarily involve the skills we would attain by crossing the aisle and conquering our emotional demons.