this is the worst for me. for YEARS, i'm talking 5+ if i'm being generous (i'm 21), my mom has not had a job yet it's just been me, her, and my disabled sister who can't provide for herself at all. we live on section 8 so things aren't bright at all, and i never, ever, ever in my life get a moment of privacy or even silence at home, because when she is gone (which is rare because she doesn't have friends or hobbies), my mentally-disabled sister who is really just her enabler will make sure the whole block hears how the Cubs lost or just repeat phrases over and over until i want to blow my brains out through the headphones..

it's even harder telling friends and trying to get them to understand, which they can't, so i only told one who can in some way. but, i can't ever get some quiet in this house, and coming from an introvert that is literally what i need to properly excel. i don't even write unless it's early in the morning when she thinks i'm sleep because that's the only time i get privacy, just to hear her shit talk behind her door like that wouldn't wake me up anyway. i want to move out so bad but it's expensive and i would like roommates to cut costs but i have no friends planning to move out solo, so i feel stuck once again..

every day is the same for as long as i can remember, i'm surprised i've survived this long. whatever you're battle is you can make it through, just keep going, you're doing fine.