I just got out of an eight year relationship. It has been hard, but it was necessary unfortunately. I am still trying to figure out how to be single again. Well last week a good friend and his wife invited their place and mentioned that their neighbor was somewhat newly single, and thought that we would be a good match. He was not wrong. She was (is) awesome. I was immediately super attracted to her, our conversations were great, and it was the perfect mix of passionate, fun, light, easy, and deep. However, several days later now reality has kicked in and it sucks. Basically, the circumstances just are not right for me to be in a relationship so soon. Plus, I am going to be traveling for a few months and working on building myself up a again. She does not want to casually/exclusively date from afar, which of course makes sense. The kicker is that even though I accept that the circumstances are not right, I can’t stop thinking about her, and it is driving me mildly crazy. At this point, our text messages have slowed down to almost none (to be expected give the situation I think), though a part of me gets giddy when a text comes through. This entire situation is a perfect mixture of exciting, annoying, and mildly depressing. I feel like I am in high school again, which is kinda fun given I have not had feelings like this in a loooooong time. I just wish the circumstances were better.

Anyways, I don’t think this is a rant, celebration, rave, or cry for advice. I just kinda needed to put it out there is all. Though I am happy to hear what other people think, sans toxic negativity of course.