"Fuck it"

I used to be extremely anxious, and as a result extremely depressed. I hated most everything about myself and other people and I was scared to do prety much anything. One day I was in class and had to ask the teacher something but I kept thinking about how scary that would be, but then I just told myself "fuck it" and did it anyways. In a weird way, it put the situation into perspective for me: I need help, she can provide it, and she helps tons of students every day, so fuck it, just ask. I say that to myself a lot now, it's a really quick and easy pep talk to remind myself that most of the problems I come across don't matter too much in the long run, or don't matter as much to others as they will to me. May as well, yeah? Fuck it.

I feel it's also important to memtion I was in therapy at the time, and the whole idea behind the "fuck it" thing stemmed from a lot of the advice my therapist gave me. If anyone reading this thread is in a similar situation, you can keep quotes and memories in mind (who knows what may help), but I'd still reccomend therapy first. They're professional helpers.