It's the nuance of the privacy thing that I'm wondering about. Am I sharing this reality with the larger field by adding to it by what i submit, or does it pull the rug out from me before I even have a chance to say? Can I formulate my own question without the hivemind getting in the way? If I can't, then that means that I don't really exist, and that it's the rest of you all that is controlling me. But if I don't exist, then you don't exist, and then there is no one left to ask the question at all, so you see where this is getting me? I need to know if it's kind of my duty to report on discovered bits of personal esoteric meaning back to the overmind, or if that's kind of automatic for the universe and I can just kick back?

Because I've come to some really important insights, but thought some else might already be recording it. Was the universe actually expecting me to diligently report back all of my findings? Or is there an archive somewhere else, some other perspective that observed and recorded what I saw? Is the universe good with not knowing that thing that I forgot to include? Can the collective memory reconstruct a lost memory of the individual?