Hey there. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You’re not alone. I’m currently in a 6 month relationship with a great guy and I just told him last week about me questioning My sexuality. It’s hard because I’m diagnosed with ocd & adhd so it’s very common for people with ocd to obsess about it. I also have experienced a lot of the comphet doc things, but again with my mental health/past trauma it’s hard to know. I know I 100% seek make validation. I also Def tend to obsess over guys and then flip a switch and I’m over it. That being said I would like to explore dating women because I myself have wondered if I’m asexual because I’ve never looked at sex the way my friends have. Of course with my past abuse it’s hard to. it’s hard to come to terms with. We’re the same age… I feel like I’m going to lose my entire identity. Once I start exploring it I plan to be 100000% honest with everyone because I would never lead anyone on but it’s hard. I’ve been creeping on this sub the last month or so and its made me feel better. You’re not alone. We’re here for you. Sounds crazy but it’s true.