That's wrong, especially on the doctors behalf. I'm sorry you were made to feel like that and now have to carry that guilt especially when it was at no fault of your own. I know it hurts and it might make you angry at times but please don't let it consume you. I know all too well what holding onto that kind of stuff feels like and it's only people like us that lose sleep and hurt (not the other party/s). Sometimes I'm woken at stupid hours because I have things in the back of my head and it ruins my day and has ruined relationships with many people.i can totally understand what you feel and I'm just so sorry that your voice wasn't hurt that is really unfair. You're a good parent -just by reading your comments I can feel it. Again, I'm so so sorry to hear this.