Thank you! All of these people are accusing of me lying and it's like why the fuck would I lie? I hardly even use reddit. You can look at my post history. My last post was months ago. I have no fucking reason to lie. I am just telling my story as it is. People say the benzo thing doesn't make sense. I used to abuse the shit out of benzos and sometimes still do! I also take 2mg of clonazepam a day and have for 5 years. In those 5 years 4 times I have abused benzos. The last time was 4 months ago when my best friend died. I took 14mg of clonazepam at once and I didn't black out or forget anything. Kindling is a thing and it can last years or even be permanent. That's common knowledge with GABAergic drugs. They say the fentanyl should have broke through. I don't even know if they gave me fentanyl. Just because they said they were going to doesn't mean they would. I didn't watch them take out a bottle of fentanyl that says fentanyl on it and pull out a dose of it and inject me with it. They went and got multiple doses of a clear liquid. They then injected me with those clear liquids and they didn't do shit for the pain and misery of discomfort. They then say I went 2 days without suboxone and they gave me fentanyl right off the bat. I never said they gave me fentanyl right off the bat. They gave me fentanyl for the procedures. Until I went in for the first procedure they gave me no pain meds. I was in agony from the pleurisy but I took my dose of suboxone on the 2nd day (technically third because I went into the hospital at around 9pm once I had already taken all my meds), that night they did an x-ray and took some blood. The next day they did an ekg, took more blood and did an ultrasound and gave me all my meds EXCEPT SUBOXONE) then on the technically 3rd day in the hospital they finally gave me my suboxone at around lunch time. Then I went in for the procedure in the afternoon. So I had already taken my 16mg of suboxone. I have gone 3 days without taking suboxone before and felt no withdrawal whatsoever. All of these people make all of these assumptions yet for all I know the only pain meds they genuinely gave me was the one small dose of fentanyl, because i genuinely think when the nurse offered a single dose of fentanyl AFTER the procedure that it was indeed fentanyl, and then IV dilaudid then tramadol tablets. None of it touched my pain and I didn't feel anything. During the procedures they may have just given me Versed. During the 2nd procedure the doctor said they "gave me 8 beers worth of Versed". I already know my benzo tolerance is much higher than 8 beers. I could chug down 8 beers, which I haven't drank in 5 years, and know I'd not black out. Their goal was to have me black out or pass out. 8 beers is not enough to do either and I just know that because I know my body and know my benzo tolerance is stupid. It's always been high. I could munch down 3 xanax bars and still not black out. The worst is I'd stumble, slur and feel super calm and sleepy. i really hate when someone tells their story and there's always those people who say you're lying. Like why the fuck would I waste my time lying? I just wanted to tell my story as a warning so someone else might not have to go through what i went through. That's it. I didn't feel the need to go into every single little detail because that wasn't the point.