Does money freak you out?

I know exactly how you feel I have financial troubles as well especially since my landlords being one of the reasons due to unexpected rent increases every other month and I can’t cancel my lease I have to stay until next October unless they end up evicting me for not being able to pay and something like that could happen soon I could report them but I don’t know think that would help. Funny thing is the other tenants where I live haven’t had issues with them so maybe I’m being targeted I wouldn’t doubt it I’ve been targeted by people including relatives and people who know my relatives my entire life so it’s possible I’ve just never really thought about it especially cause of the financial issues I’m having I’ve tried to cut corners where I can so I can spend a little less so I can have money for necessities while being able to pay my rent, power, water and gas bills ( my landlords don’t pay for any of that they don’t for any of the other tenants they do pay for garbage pickup ) plus I got my phone bill, my internet bill and my Netflix bill (I used to have other streaming services but canceled them to save money) and after all of that I don’t have a lot for anything else so I really don’t have much to save anymore or put away for emergencies. But anyways what I’m going through financially has been triggering me and has been making me feel worse all the time plus I have many other things to deal with especially with all of the trauma I’ve experienced even in the last 2 years not much has happened recently but I still feel everything from the previous 18 years of my life plus the past 2 I was a little kid when stuff started happening. On top of being triggered by financial issues it sometimes freaks me out but not always right now what’s freaking me out is if I get evicted for not being able to pay rent especially since my other bills except for my phone bill (that has gone down recently) are getting higher. If I could move out I would plus where I live isn’t that nice it’s decent though their is an apartment I want that’s a lot cheaper and nicer in my area I got to see it not long ago but I can’t get it until my lease is up or I get evicted

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