Last year I met a woman off Craigslist. It started off as a platonic email friendship but over time we became really close and met in person. We started off talking to vent about our crappy passionless relationships. I'm 22 and she's 33. I fell hard. We never crossed a physical line of cheating, but there was definitely something emotional there. We stopped talking for 6 months because she went through a change in her personal life (new job, new apt). I missed her and thought about her every single day. We reconnected two months ago and I'm so torn. She no longer cares about me in the same way as before. I understand I guess but I'm just so hung up on the past. I want her more than I want my gf and I'm so ashamed to admit it.

It sucks to be me because I'm hung up over someone who doesn't really want me in her life anymore. At the same time I'm ashamed of desiring someone else while I'm in a relationship. Sometimes I still hope she'll want me again... but why would she? I'm just having a hard time reconciling my feelings for someone I shouldn't have feelings for. I hate being so emotional.