Emotional Hunger is not Love

Yes. I thought for a long time that my existence was the only thing preventing my mom from killing herself. She praised and even made up things about me that were like her, and was extremely competitive with/jealous of people I cared about other than her. She also projected her interests and regrets on to me -- telling me I had always wanted to play a certain instrument (French horn) and go to a certain college (William and Mary), for example. She still writes me emails about jobs I "should" try to get or articles I "should" write, all based on things she finds interesting (that in many cases we've never even talked about). She also has a history of sabotaging or casting shadows over important moments in my life: scheduling a big family trip to New York during one of the hardest final-exam weeks I had in college, abruptly canceling a trip to see me graduate from a renowned grad program upon hearing I had been asked to speak on behalf of my class, writing to warn me that my marriage was going to end in disaster upon receiving my wedding invitation in the mail...that kind of thing.

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