modern life was always too much for me. Sometimes being disabled I am overwhelmed thinking, it's time to take my medication AGAIN, or I am dragging myself out of bed. I try to keep a routine, so I can still move. Some people with my illness can't get out of bed. Life sucks though when you got to make yourself DO everything. I do some fun stuff but there is always a part of me doing an hour countdown for when I can collapse into bed. If I was young and healthy I'd drop out of society. Intentional community? Another life style? I think they make everyone do too much. Before I was disabled I worked 60-70 hours a week just for substinence living. Everything seems too complicated. I cooked me and husband healthy dinner of chicken and rice noodles with veggies galore in it, and ate it, took one look at the giant pile of dishes and thought hell no, and just laid down. I am sure I will regret it. He will do dishes if I ask....it's like the gas runs out of the tank physically and mentally. I'm Aspie too and everything was far more complicated on that score, but at least at this age, I'm not in terror every second and learned some of the basics of life skills.