Started drinking daily two years ago. Then it became anywhere from one to two whiskey pints per day on top of however much beer, sometimes more.

This summer started having withdrawals when I didn't drink. Isolated myself. Showed up to work wasted all the time, drank at work, drank at school, drank mouthwash if I had no money for booze. Stole my little brother's booze on a nearly daily basis. Sometimes money.

Recently got a DUI. Even before then though, I've felt like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. First half of the day I'm a happy drunk, I function, but then at night I get either hostile or suicidal and act nothing like myself. Half the time I can't remember what happened the night before and I have to check my phone to see who I need to apologize to for the previous night.

Got in my parent's car wasted the other night and took it for a joyride (I don't have a license), bought more booze, drove around drinking it, then came home, closed the garage door and let it run for about 45 minutes. Dad walked in.

Parents dragged me to rehab. I've been sober for five days. I plan on keeping it up. If for no other reason than to learn how to live sober for the duration of my probation so I don't get into any more legal trouble.

Kind of a shit time right now. Got invited to a Halloween party earlier tonight, showed up, there was booze everywhere and about 70 people. Tried interacting with people but realized I don't know how to talk to people. I learned how to be witty and charming while drunk but now sober I'm an awkward wreck without that magic elixir.