Oh man, don't be ashamed. The reality of it is, tv and stories romanticize everything but a large majority of people don't bang anything that moves, are constantly overcome with hormonal horniness, or even have relationships in high school (or after). I was a virgin until I went to college too and I ended up having sex the first time because I was just in a really bad place mentally and it felt like nothing because it meant nothing. (Disclosure: im a girl, not sure if that changes anything...some people say it does) But when I got with my current long-term boyfriend, it was truly amazing. Which I'm hesitant to say, cuz it sounds cheesy and rarely is just normal sex amazing. But it blew my mind how big of a difference the FEELINGS made. I love this guy and it made SO MUCH difference. Waiting for that is worth it. It's nothing to be ashamed of - wanting to wait until its right. I'm not ashamed of my choices, but I would been saved a lot of mental strife had I not done some of the things I did. Pressure gets to you, but try your hardest not to let it