My dad has been sick for a while and he looks a little more frail every time I see him. My mom got diagnosed his Parkinson's last year and I'm pretty sure she's got other health problems they aren't telling me. Every time I get on a plane to fly home after spending time with them I always think in the back of my mind it might have been the last time I see one of them. Honestly I'm a lot more worried about the one that doesn't die first though. Hoarding runs on my mom's side of the family and my dad is the only thing keeping that in check. My dad isn't the most outgoing guy and golf is his main social outlet, so if it comes to a point where he can't physically play anymore it would be really easy for him to end up isolating himself.

I try not to think about it because I don't think anything is going to prepare me for when it actually happens. Unfortunately I think grief is going to be the easy part.