Your going to get the truth from me, so don't read if you don't want it.
Your problem is his promise. Will the Prince of Peace return, bringing peace instead of war, bloodshed, division and wrath? Keep in mind that his promise was to drive a sword into the family unit, which is what we see all over the world. It's not just in your family, but in all families across the world, in churches and between all ethnic people groups. In all cases, one party of a divided house is selfish. If you are not the one that is selfish, then the enemy was either your spouse or the one promising to divide your home.
The beast nature is the very thing we must overcome in these end times. What is the sword in his hand? We are told his righteousness, which is the sad fact of the crown of thorns on his head. This is not over until he stops judging others (by this, himself). Either the Lord became Christ, or he is still Yahweh all over again. To me, self-righteousness is the same as wickedness. His promise was clear.
Matthew 10
34 “Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to turn:
“‘a man against his father,
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—
36 a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’
The Prince of Peace will one day show up for sure, but who are we dealing with now? Until the light shines on him for us to see, then he is simply hiding in the darkness. I believe we'll know the Messiah when we see him. When? When peace comes. It's the necessity of the second coming, removing HIS crown of thorns (Circumcision). Remember, no one can judge others apart from judging themselves. Don't blame him yet. Allow the Father to judge. He already did judge him once on the cross by a promise in Genesis 9.
Genesis 9
6 Whoever sheds human blood, by humans his blood will be shed, because in his image, Elohim made humans.
2000 years later, what have we seen? This coming:
Zephaniah 1
2 “I will gather everything on the face of the earth
and put an end to it,” declares Yahweh.
3 “I will put an end to humans and animals.
I will put an end to
the birds in the sky,
the fish in the sea,
and the sins that make people fall, together with the sinners.
I will remove all people from the face of the earth,” declares Yahweh.
Sin is a problem because the image of Adam was divided. Yahweh did this. He also made Satan. He also killed children in Exodus 11. He also said the verses above. In this, God is the Father Elohim, not Yahweh. It's too much to show you here, but the God of Love is not the Lord. The Father is not the Son. The Son is being raised, using us as his Host (Lord of Hosts).
While this is like using us a chess pieces, the benefit is that we get to live as beings. What were we before Adam? We don't know. Forgiveness is wiping of the past, so the convenience to our rulers is that they can do these things with impunity. We won't remember, and they get this from us willingly. We then agree to be born again, free from the past memories.
Is this good? Is the Garden of weeds and fruit a benefit to us somehow? I would say we might know later, when all things are revealed. Or, we might now, depending on what forgiveness actually means.
I wish I had a message of hope for you, but Matthew 10 is a scar on the landscape. We all see it every day. Adam's blood was shed by the Lord to take the Rib. From this, the fall of man. Who is to blame? Remember one thing. We have an enemy and we have a scapegoat. Although we don't know the story fully, we do know where to look.
Being a good person and being harmed is not pleasant, but at least know that good things come to those who suffer. I CAN verify this with accuracy.
Job 19 has a word for you.
25 I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth. 26 And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God; 27 I myself will see him with my own eyes—I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me!
28 “If you say, ‘How we will hound him, since the root of the trouble lies in him,’ 29 you should fear the sword yourselves; for wrath will bring punishment by the sword, and then you will know that there is judgment.
Good advise is DO NOT HOUND HIM. Instead, speak the truth to the Father. Lay the burden on the one raising the Son. Find the heart to wrestle with the Lord, then know who we wrestle with. The secret to this: WE are the Lord collectively. The Lord is the collective mind of man, as bread is to slices. Satan is the conscience / accuser. Do not judge the Lord or you judge mankind and yourself. Once you realize this, the fault can then be seen clearly. We're all in this together, and growing up as a child of God is apparently not easy. The family has major problems. God is not the Son. We are. You were wronged. This is because we all share the same problem. Sin. We are here to learn.