I hate to be blunt but the therapists in my area seem too much older to talk to maybe about the things I need to. I linked to a comment I made (relink) Everyone struggles with mortality and our world isn't set up the way it should be. These are the lightest terms I can think of to put everything in. I just don't want to hurt someone in the same age group as my dad or older with my .. whatever. I don't want to make someone in my own age group think about these things unless they're in my situation?! It just feel dark and yeh I have more time (barely) but it's not like I'm in any better shape and I don't want to make them feel like they're in a worse spot? Dancing around something morbid without naming it.. I don't want to make anyone young or old feel like that while I'm trying to sort my own stuff. I rather just idk be like this I guess un-understandable and rambly than hurt someone who might have or struggle with the same fears. I hope that's all worded some what cohesive.