Hey OP,

I'm really sorry that you're going through this. This sounds like a tough situation that I really would not like to be in. Feeling unwanted is one of the worst feelings that someone can experience, especially if it's from people that you just want to be loved by. I'm not entirely sure how to advise you on this situation, but I can give you some advice based on my own personal experience.

I went through some significant and life altering family trauma during the past two years. Basically, I found that my prescience was not something that was generally wanted regardless of how I chose to show up and how I chose to deliver my love. By the end of it, I just accepted that my family might just be full of some sociopathic idiots who don't have the capability to see me for the wonderful person that I am and it's best that I just cut my losses and move on, despite the pain and heart break that they caused me. Such is life and I have no control over the cards that I was randomly dealt, though this sucked. However, an experience that was even more heartbreaking to me was to learn that multiple people in the town that I grew up, who I was looking forward to being close to again, had developed a negative opinion of me, and even more, hate me. This is a town that I had found so much acceptance and genuine love in, and to find out that I was no longer accepted kind of crushed my soul. I can't express how much I really loved everyone in this town. I can't even make a social media page without thinking in the back of my mind what poor opinon they have of me. They developed this opinion on me based on, what I assume, very small exchanges and evidence of me online. The conclusion that they came to was not at all what I intended. I think I might be getting over this for the rest of my life.

So yes, I know how it feels to be unwanted very well. Such is life and the cards that we are dealt can be strange. I hope that you find your chosen family and one day will meet people who see you for who you truly are and for your soul. Everyone deserves love and acceptance. Being outcasted and exiled by quite literally everyone that you've tried to love can be hard.