It might be okayto not talk about an attempt to your friends.

Sui cide is extremely vile and reprehensible to people who are not considering it themselves.

Think about how heavy a thought it is to end your life. Some people, like you are now, have trouble dealing with thoughts like that.

Your depression and struggle is your own, and you cant drag anyone into it with you. ive been in your headspace for about 2 decades now and i can tell you that talking to others about killing yourself is a bad path. Try to solve your problems yourself, alongside your friends. Use your friends for what they are. Company, love, and support.

However, if youre a person who cant keep from sharing their "attempts" people might think youre just seeking attention.

I get that vibe a bit from this post but i cant judge.