This was called “PENIS ENVY PSILOCYBE CUBENSIS” on the package, a 3.5 chocolate bar divided into 12 pieces gifted to me. I took it all over the course of like 5-8 hours I lost track of time to be honest with you. I never tried any psychedelic before so I wanted to try little as possible first. The first two hours I cleaned up my house until I fatigued. Then felt like clubbing probably due to the music I was listening to while cleaning and had a strong urge to go out and be social. Then I noticed an automatic ritual come up and thought to myself “hey this was gone for a while?” like almost forgot I had OCD or something. Then I just stopped the movement that would usually be automatic. I don’t know, I just didn’t do it. Then it happened again, and I noticed it and “ugh here you are” just spoke to myself like why, what is this fear and anxiety behind this provoking this movement this immediate muscle memory response to a trigger, and then I just stopped it, I didn’t go repetitively over and over. I’ve been being my own therapist for the past two hours now I think. I really have no answers or help as I’m a noob and this was my first time. I can only share my experience and hope that you are able to try a dose and find some relief yourself. I know I have been in the same suffering position and wanting to end my life for a very long time but I think the mushrooms will be a very good therapy to myself and to you. At some points I thought I expected this to be different or to feel more I thought this was the cure, but I think I had to provoke my own pain and allow it to surface to feel benefit, walk through my life with my eyes closed. Maybe too much information than you needed but I do hope you can find relief in the magic mushrooms