I think we're all delusional on some level.
Mom never taught me how to wear makeup. She actually discouraged it, because she couldn't teach me how to do it, and said on top of that I might end up looking like Courtney down the street who had so much blue eyeshadow on that she looked like a whore. That was my first introduction to makeup.
Look, I actually come from the outside and it only got worse as I got older. I was socially isolated and didn't have any girlfriends at all, and those that I did for some reason I pushed them away. Not sure why - I couldn't afford anything, maybe, to look like them, dress like them, wear makeup (because I wasn't allowed to and that was just an excuse really). But I wanted to be pretty and I wanted boys to like me. I knew somewhere that this was the socially acceptable route, to wear makeup. To like pretty clothes, that I couldn't afford to buy. To wear shoes and purses and etc. And I don't even to this day even though when I started actually earning money think I've got this fucking thing right. It makes me uncomfortable. I'd rather not do it sometimes, but I do like men. I do really reallly like men. And don't get me wrong, I'm not sleeping around, I'm married, but even I KNEW THAT IT WAS TO ATTRACT MEN! You have to be part of this whole stupid situation where you act like other girls, look like other girls, talk like other girls, like the same things other girls like, wear makeup, make sure your hair is shiny and smooth and that you are pretty and sexy and somehow this gives you fucking power! WHY??! And then you guys just sit there and deny, deny, deny that it's for men when makeup is labeled things like kissable lips and its a prerequisite for being attractive to wear it! It's part of the fucking uniform! When before in olden times only fucking whores wore makeup!
I'm still angry that I almost got myself thrown out of a girlgamer forum for even suggesting this, when it's so stupidly obvious that no one just wants to say it! We wear makeup for guys. We wear makeup to be prettier, to make ourselves more attractive. WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING IT FOR?! Yourself? I WOULDN'T DO IT IF I WAS DOING IT FOR MYSELF, it's like fucking work! Hey let's spend 100s of dollars so that I can look in the mirror and tell myself I'm pretty. We in no way want other people to tell us we're pretty, think we're attractive, respect us for something that we will desperately cling to the rest of our lives.
One person actually told me that someone did something very wrong to me! NO, SOMEONE DID SOMETHING VERY WRONG TO YOU BECAUSE YOU APPARENTLY LIE TO YOURSELF!
And yet I can't hold that opinion and say it's obvious because why the hell else would it enter our minds to do it? Because the other girls will kick me out. Fuck it.
I just...don't...have any more fucking words...
/end rant