I am rocked. My soul is rocked by this and my heart is broken. You are not alone, there are millions of us standing beside you right now, in utter disbelief. I am in my thirties and I've lived a lot of life, and as a result I have friends from all walks of life. Every single conversation I have had in the past four days (with women I love in all different states) has only been about this. How we have been unceremoniously stripped of a Constitutional Right. A Constitutional Right revoked, I mean the thought is just...we are all gobsmacked. And grieving. And scared, frankly. As one friend said today, she's really struggling even being in work meetings with men right now, because she now knows that she is a different class than they are. I am also struggling with the lack of care and concern coming from the people in my life that don't have uteruses. I am further reflecting on who I have been over recent years as an "ally" to loved ones who, and how I could have served them better. How far away I was from knowing - remotely beginning to understand, really- what it is like to have your country betray you. Women will die. Many women will die, because of this.

And I think the hurt that is specific to us, "us" as is the uterus-havers studying the bar exam in July of 2022, is that we are also knee-deep in Con Law right now. Like the history, the purpose, the black letter, distilled, this-is what-the-hell- this-is-for law. Our mf-ing protections, our government. And what is crazy is ,I have so much respect for the Constitution, like how it is supposed to work. The limitations on the branches of government, as they operate in tandem with and against each other. I had so much respect for the Supreme Court, too. I really did- my whole life I have. Even the Scalias and the Rehnquists and being angry at holdings in law school and all that sh*t, I still.... of course I grew disillusioned and angry and all that, but I held them... in a different light, because I believed in this idea of this Court that did it's damndest to be objective and logical and, well, just.

And also (as of today) I am fcking ignited. I will fight for access to healthcare for people with uteruses until the day I die. I really mean that. I believe in the Constitution. I believe in our privacy rights, and I am fcking patriotic because I believe in the America that was supposed to be....the Universal Healthcare having, private prison banning, environmentally forward af electric cars out the ass no-kill animal shelters ONLY, reparations giving, free-college having America.