I've never had a bad injury but when I was a teenager, I had a groin straing (adductor tear) that kept me from running for almost 2 months.

It drove me away from my routine. I wasn't living this way for any particular reason other than fun, but my routine was quite like your own in the sense that I spent most of my free time "practicing" and exercising in general.

What ended up happening to me is that I lost the level of interest I had in my sport for the rest of my life because I became more enticed by a social lifestyle. I never went through depression. I limped into parties and had a blast.

This is not what I am telling you to do. The reason I am telling you this is to give you hope. I have, at one stage in my life, felt like all I ever wanted to do was succeed in my sport. I lived that shit. It's all I thought about. I'd watch youtube videos with over-dramatized music and I would envision myself doing these things, sometimes through teary-eyes. It was more important to me than anything in the world. Without knowing you, this is what I think your sport means to you. And you don't know how valuable that is.

I don't know how skilled you are, but if you have this level of desire, you can drag your skill less ass a long way. I promise you. If you're skilled, then hell, the sky's the limit. I want you to understand that your literal and emotional pain is a hidden gift. It's reassuring you that this is what's important. If you had asked me about my level of dedication and desire before I was hurt I would have told you it was at %100. But circumstance proved me wrong. You have proven yourself right. Take this gift and use it as strength.

Also, as a last bit of advice: Eventually you will be okay. When you come back, make sure you trust yourself. The thing that was hard for me was coming back from an injury and being unsure of my touch, my balance, myself in general. I didn't trust my step. I couldn't be as explosive or dominant as I was used to and it was just because of being out. It will come back. If this is your first rodeo and you come back and feel like a shell of your former self; Don't worry. It's temporary. I still remember how shot my confidence was the first time I came back from an injury and just wasn't that good anymore.