Had a very close family member pass away in a tragedy.

Not the flowers, not the condolences, not the I am sorry's, not materialistic things helped either. Out of many friends, only one could fully understand how I felt. Had a friend whose mother passed away unexpectedly 1.5 months (brain hemorrhage) after the tragedy. He and I formed a very close bond, because he could understand how I feel and I could understand how he felt.

To have one friend who I could open up and he could understand was therapeutic and soothing for me and vice versa. All you need is one friend who can understand because they also going through the grief process too, believe me.

Time heals in some ways to be able to build your life again and be "normal" again, takes time and it's a process. You don't get over the loss completely , you may dream about them, you miss them, but you are able to live life but a little differently but the memories still lingers and sometimes they come when you least expect.

Guess what I am trying to say, you are not alone, find others who also experience a loss, because it's a bit soothing to know you are not alone in the emotions of ups and downs, the roller coaster ride of the grief process.

Also, you turn a new leaf when someone very close to you passes away.

Really disliked it when some idiot would say "Oh, I can't imagine how you feel blah blah" shows how ignorant they are. Uff