I believe everything I do because of both, yes. But when they come talk to me and I politely ask them to pray for me to believe instead of either telling me why I should or why it's wrong to not believe, it just pisses me off because I've been through the arguments, I've read the BIBLE, they can't simply change my mind! I mean, Maybe one day I will believe, but I'm sure that it'll be either God or myself that convinces me. Not people who just try to tell me why God is real. I knowwwwww they're just trying to share their glory and wisdom of God but I've been through it so much. And then when I ask them to pray for me and respect my beliefs, they just wont fuckinnn stop. So I just eventually lash out and have to tell them that God hates them and to leave me the fuck alone.