Lol bro I feel that pain. I had about 9k in my account rinsed that shit in a week. I'd say I've lost about 60k in 3 years and i only make 37k year rofl. I'm not innocent I still dabble. But you can deff come back from this ez. Hell I'm back up to over 3k by just saving up and working. I limit myself to 100 ONLY per check but that's it if I lose oh well fuck it. But also find ways to get entertainment without gambling. Build a car, gaming pc, get into vr i found that fishing is a good way to pass time when i want to gamble. I'll go out do some catch and release for a few hours it helps with the itch. Trust me I'm the poorest high roller you'll ever meet. I've done 1600$ bets on fuckin bj before lmao guess what I lost. I've burned 3k in 30 mins and then cried into a pillow for a fucking hour asking myself why the fuck did i do that? I'm no saint I could fuckin relapse any time I fuckin hope not but could.
When I get the itch I call friends ask if they wanna hangout or play games. But I found PERSONALLY quitting gambling cold turkey is best way to relapse. If i wanna high roll guess what that's 2 1/2 months i gotta wait cause I'm only allowed 100 per check. Again this only works for me. I now low bet and follow bank management rules firmly. If you wanna try something smart when you really get the itch do like me. Toss 100 or 200 into a ira or a crypto ira. Grow that money and don't touch that shit. It feels good to watch that nest egg grow.
Gambling is a fuckin curse for us degenerates hunting for that big fucking hit to retire. Just remember on these sites we're MEANT to lose not win ever. That sites goal is to take your money 100% and they laugh their asses off when they win. Also if you double your money pull out quit. Say you turn 100 into 800 from a big slot hit. I'll pull out 600 leave 200 in cause i now have double my deposit. ALWAYS pull out (pun intended). Cause like a casino when that cash is on screen and not in bank they're nothing but fucking fun coupons. It's all psychologically set up to fuck you. Also think of how these sites are designed and set up to give us little pops here and there to give us those endorphin hits to make us play more to lose more to "chase that big win".
I'm just rambling here just sharing my thoughts on online gambling and what I do to cope. Also i find a 1 month break is a MUST to reset and try only playing 100 a check. Again this is how i cope with the degen life. Just know they don't see you as a person with a life nor care about your mental health. As long as they suck you dry you can live die or grow mushrooms in your Crack for all they care. Just know it's not the end, fuck them take a step back and fight back take a 1 month break think of ways to invest before a deposit.
If you need talk message me when you get the itch it can help to find other ways to spend the money or think of shit your good at. Me i think hey I'll buy a car, paint it and turn 2k into 5k rather than getting fucked by the site. Idk again I'm just rambling probably sound stupid and horrible advice just my thoughts right now tryna let you know you're fine and to start over realize you're not fucked forever just at this moment which will pass.