That's good! Personally I'm not sure what to think about therapy, I feel like its use is pretty limited when it comes to serious mental disorders. I think you have to have a certain level of functioning and willingness in order to benefit from it and even then you can't talk away apathy or fatigue or memory issues or vocab issues or blunt affect, only encourage better behaviours and give coping mechanisms. At the same time I feel a little dependent on the sessions, almost like an emotional crutch where I feel it's nice to talk but they have zero benefit, I do want to quit the sessions but feel like my therapist will guilt trip me into continuing, plus she has a mandatory 4 weeks winding down period of sessions.

I suppose making comments where I can on reddit is my manifestation of loneliness. I can't really connect with others in person anymore so shared anonymous experiences on the internet is about the extent of my socialisation, being barred by your own low functioning mind is the ultimate form of loneliness.

Now I feel like deleting this pointless post because it's really pointless drivel, now I think it appears like I'm desperate for attention. Sigh...