I sincerely hope you do get better quickly, & don’t experience anything more than what you’ve experienced so far. I hope the best possible outcome for you. I’m glad you’ve come to this realization. As someone with parents who also have a fear & anxiety when having to deal with doctors, hospitals and medications it makes it easier on your kids if you cooperate in taking care of yourself.

I hope you can sooner than later rid yourself of the stigma that taking medication is something to avoid. The many advancements in modern medicine are nothing shy of something to marvel at & utilize when available & recommended. Depending on where you’re from, you may not have a primary care physician to receive checkups, & that can play a part I think in the anxiety many feel when it comes to taking care of themselves. It’s perfectly human to be a little scared of the uncertainty of what you’ll discover on every visit. However, preventative care works a million times more efficiently than treatments. Eventhough in this scenario it’s a little late to get the vaccine to prevent the case you will have now, hopefully moving onwards you can be more proactive in your self care should consultations be readily available to you. For your kids, man.