k...so I'm in the army...im getting out next year(not that that has to do with anything) and a while ago I met this beautiful woman...the woman of my dreams. She has everything I want and need in a woman. She feels the same way about me. Unfortunately my past marriage has killed my ability to trust anyone fully and I know it's shitty to keep thinking about the things my ex did and compare them to what she does sometimes(IE going out and when drunk not caring much about what I feel). Some of the things she does reminds me of my ex...but I know for a fact she isn't being the ugly woman my ex wife was...but my problem is I can't seem to adapt...im trying so hard and I love this girl to death(more than I loved anyone else) and I don't want to control her or anything...I just want to make her happy...but sometimes she likes to just leave...only when she gets drunk to the point where she doesn't think she's doing anything wrong...and it absolutely kills me. it doesn't happen often...but every time it happens she is regretful of doing it the next morning and she even tells me she doesn't know why she does that it just happens when she gets too much alcohol in her. I know for a fact she isn't doing it to hurt me it's just in her persona to just flee sometimes because of her past(we have almost identical pasts...but handle it differently). It's honestly getting better but I just got back from a shitload of training and all I wanted to do was spend time with her this weekend(I got back this past Friday). I'm not trying to keep her cooped up but I also just want to keep her in my arms. I sound retarded because I know what any other man would do but I'm not any other man. I'm doing my best to be patient and I know one day it will all stop and she will come to her senses. That day is not now though. I only ask because I want to keep this relationship with her. And I feel like i'd go to Hel and back to do it. I want to marry this woman. She is fucking amazing! Other than that other stuff haha but nobody is perfect...but she is perfect for me...i have flaws too..i'm a jealous prick and react according to my past...trying to get a grip on myself. Any thoughts on how to handle the situation while simultaneously trying to not be a jealous cuntbag?

PS my jealousy is my least favorite aspect about myself