I'm lucky in some way. I had weird confidence growing up and just lived to have fun with people. I still remembering thinking at 18 that it was actually very likely someone had badmouthed me behind my back. I just assumed life was easy. Then I moved to my home country and realised I'm not that cool. Which is when I started working on being a hard worker and bettering myself. I just try to be lowkey and not be the center of attention these days. Luckily my people skills were good, or I'd be fuckkkked. I just enjoy listening to people and work towards getting them talking. From there I can make chat with most anyone.

Yeah, cocaine and meth scare me. Fake energy followed by deep anxiety and paranoia. I've never paid for them, I used to go out with my rich patrons who breathed coke though. So I've done more than I should have. The drug that scares me though is salvia. It takes over for a minute and you wake up wondering where you were. So underrated with how dangerous it is. Yet it's hardly ever mentioned. I didn't realise what I was about take the first time and am scared of it now. Having no control is really scary.

But yeah. I agree life is awesome. If you think for yourself you can really take it whichever way you like. There's no handbook to life and so many different things to experience. It's just one big learning curve, I feel like I'm close to finding out what I really want. And now I can sit back and laugh at the weird situations I've been through unscathed. Whatever path may have been best, I'm love the one I took. No parent supervision from 12 and a non judgemental outlook. Anyways I'm gonna go hunt some music. Tonight's been fun, I never talk about these things. And I'm glad someone else loves life. I get scared people get too caught up and forget that it's just one crazy adventure they control.