Literally going through the same thing, I just moved into my apartment. (Luckily I was able to plan ahead of time. I was going to finish my semester in a dorm then just hop over to the apartment but...yay covid.)

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I recommend talking to a counselor ( betterhelp provides huge discounts to people without insurance/low income/students and so far it's great for me ), because they'll be able to guide you through all the intricacies of accepting and moving forward in your situation.

I'm feeling the same way as you, it's all so recent that I'm realizing the truth and it's all so confusing and makes me feel like I'm losing my mind. My nparents tried to tell me to get on meds because clearly it was just my mental instability that made me walk out after being deliberately humiliated. They made my whole family believe that I'm just an entitled, selfish person that doesn't realize how good they have it, and that no one understands why I'm ~behaving this way.

You'll get through this, one way or another. We're all here with you. You're not crazy. You deserve better. The way you are treated is wrong and is not justifiable. You're not crazy. You will get through this. Be safe.