I'm sorry you feel like this, you are so young and don't deserve the pain you have endured. I also offer hugs, which I wish were real. I suggest you just think for a while, we have a brain for a reason, new ideas to explore and find out what you would like to do, your goals and main goal. You say you wish you had more money but what would you do if you had more money? Would you move out and leave your family and girlfriend? Would you take them with you? I have no money, lol, just curious. I wish I could afford to get you a flight to Manchester UK and try to help you out but I can't even afford rent this month unless I get given twice as many hours as I'm expecting. You're not alone though, chat if you need to. Just reading about the protests over the Iranian minimum wage, disgusting.