Alright, you seem lost and looking for somebody to tell you not what you want to hear, but what you need to hear.

I feel like you have said yourself what you should do, and that you are not ready to do it.

Nobody is coming to save you. You say you want to be helped. Are you trying to convince us, or are you trying to convince yourself?

If you want to be helped, there is a price to pay, admitting to yourself and your parents that you feel you have a problem.

Or biting the bullet until you are on your own and getting help then. Are you going to be able to hold frame until then?

I talk to you as a person. Nevermind boy, girl, dinosaur, or spaceship, I don't give a damn. If you want to be saved, fucking act like it. Or suffer. Whichever you feel like doing. I am not your dad