Stay just as you are. The party people are just people who are brainwashed super consumers who got these ideas from TV and live their lives that way (that's how I feel about it anyway). Don't overthink. You're doing great. Look at how all these dudes in the comments swarmed lol. There's a reason for that.

Some of those people in the party scene never grow up. It's judgemental of me to say, but I believe a lot of them don't realize they are alcoholics too (talking about the club scene people). I know people who did it at 21 and are still on the same bullshit at 45. Same EXACT mentality. Just don't feel like you need to be that way.

Amy winehouse has a song called fuck me pumps you might love it. RIP to that amazing talent