I spent way to long on this.

This triggers a very specific panicky alertness and indescribable, unbearable pain. I've wrote nearly the exact same things before many times. This is like reading my letters I wrote at 14/15.

All I can say is what almost nobody said to me.

You're deserving of love and happiness. You're important to this world and have a part to play in it. Don't give power to those who hurt you. Take your pain and use it to create something beautiful, use it to make a light for someone else in the dark. You're never alone, even if it really seems like you are. Nothing lasts forever, everything is temporary, including what has lead you to this point. Cherish every moment, whether good or bad. It is okay to not be okay. You're loved and wanted by someone in this world. You were put here for a reason and have a purpose, even if you might not know what that purpose is yet. Try not to worry about what you cannot control.

The following is written on the outside of the portfolio (or similar to one) which was given to me by a psych ward worker (I really wish this person gave me some sort of contact info but I'm still unsure of the legality of that)

"You are eternal light and love. You were ment to be here. Life is a journy, enjoy the ride.

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No one deserves to steal your happiness. When you doubt your power you give power to doubt You have the opportunity to be in a completely different space a year from now, physically, mentally, spiritually. You're life is precious"

Backside:

"There is nothing in life I can't achieve.

"Say it!!

There is NOTHING in life I can't achieve.

Feel It! ——–– THERES NOTHING IN LIFE I CAN'T ACHIEVE"

The letters inside I didn't include, as I don't want to wear down the glue on the seal, or crease the paper.