I’ll frame it better, but I don’t want to completely open up to her. We are close, and I love her, but that's a lot. I could just be jaded from cutting for 6+ months. I'll start with long sleeves although my mother knows I'm hot blooded and it will surely make her question my choice.

She's aware that I've recently been going through a rough patch with my father, who I live with. I've been occasionally venting to her. I think it wouldn't be surprising for her to hear I've been unhappy for a month or two. It may be surprising to hear that I've been feeling shitty for a couple years. I've also framed the visit as an escape from my situation with the bonus of being able to see her and my cat.

I think after a talk, I'm just going to tell her that I'm not going to hide it anymore. I'm not interested in covering myself for people I truly love or people I don't care about. If she can't handle looking at them, then I'll leave.

Maybe I'll just stick to my BS story I made up.