You're not listening. (reading, rather)

Everyone also did psych 101, everyone is aware of the concept of self-fulfilling prophecy. But you know what, being aware of it harms more than it helps.

I've been saying that I don't believe it's impossible to change. I'm saying that even if you change, it doesn't make you a better person. You already hurt someone. That ship has sailed. You can avoid becoming worse, by fixing your behaviour and how you react to things, but you can never become a good person again. It will seem like you are, if you're able to change, but that's because the people who will consider you a good person now don't know your past. You'll essentially be lying to everyone you know by acting like a good person.

To be honest, I did not realize that I was on the social anxiety sub. But I guess it does relate to that a bit. I avoid making friends, although sometimes the desire to socialize is stronger, so I end up making acquaintances. But I usually ghost them once I realize I'm making a friend. Also, never ever do I try to get closer to people, it's other people who come to me. Apparently I have charm/am easy to talk to, stuff like that. Honestly I believe it's kind of the same thing than how they say psychopaths are charming. Also, as I mentioned earlier, I was accused of rape, and even though it was never my intention and I loved that girl, it must be true because every other girl I've been intimate with has cut contact with me and/or mentioned how I was using them. Which is true, I was objectifying them to an extent. But yeah, all that to say that I avoid social contact, especially anything intimate or romantic as I don't want to hurt more people