Thank you for your post, it was very helpful. It has made me have some more insights about my situation, as I don't really know what I want. Particularly, reading your last paragraph in which you say

The more people you meet, the more people you connect with, the greater your opportunity to find a woman you can fall in love with and bang.

For some reason I had a very deep reaction to the ending "fall in love with and bang". It reminded me that at the beginning of this relationship I had talked to her about how I've never actually had any desire to have sex with anyone and the only reason I'd be interested in having sex with her is because it is something special we could share. However, the idea of sex in itself is completely and utterly uninteresting to me and to be honest I'd just rather that it wasn't a part of relationships. I think perhaps I need to do some more soul searching, as I may just not be ready for any type of relationship.

In regards to the stuff about being awkward - I didn't mean I'm awkward in general/have trouble connecting with people, but rather that I am awkward around girls that I'm romantically interested in because I am a rather feminine guy (not ashamed to admit that) and they expect me to be much more masculine than I am, but unfortunately I can't fill that role. I also lose physical interest in someone once I am romantically interested in them, so the girls want me to make moves and get physical with them when I'd really rather just take it slow because I haven't reached the level yet where I'm interested in anything sexual again. I'm very good at connecting with people and have a very good social life, I just have trouble reconciling that with anything physical.