but just starting to like her more at five months? something is very very off there

I already liked her as a casual friend before this. As a romantic partner, I started to like her after about 2.5-3 months. I definitely like her now, but its still not like a burning passion, if that makes sense.

I just really want you to know that...if your girlfriend came across this post it would emotionally devastate her...and you thinking things like this constantly and it being your reality, I can guarantee that she doesn't comprehend that you simply feel kind of cold towards her

I like her better than I've ever liked any girl before. I've never really "felt" anything for a girl, other than hornyness and lust before her. She knows this.

..but love and accept me as a person. does that make sense?

Uhh not really. I think she's trill as fuck, and we get a long really well and have a lot of fun togeather. I've said some sweet things to her and made her feel better about herself, and helped her when she felt bad and all that shit too, so its not like I'm a straight up asshole.

I feel even worse for her..that she's already dealt with something like this before, that's probably why she's accustomed to it and putting up with it more than she would otherwise.

She's friends with the one dude she had a serious relationship with so I can't imagine she harbors any hatred or resentment, so I doubt it was too bad.

your relationship doesn't sound healthy and you feelings towards her don't really sound all that loving and supportive...

What would make it "healthy"

. I need you to know that there are plenty of men out there who would love her passionately and be able to appreciate her much more than you are right now. And that is why you should indeed feel somewhat bad about this.

There are dudes that tried to pursue her. If they were as good as me, she would have gone out with them instead of pursuring me for months.

just know that there are girls you will care for more, girls maybe..you would be in love with more

Maybe, but I've never really felt any sort of romantic feelings for anyone other than this girl, so idk what to make of that.

but I'm begging you to tell her all of this and be open with her so she can make her own decision. she needs to know all of this!! or else you're doing her a great disservice and basically lying to her

She knows how I am. She knows that I like her, but don't love her and all that. I'm actually a pretty open dude.