I don’t know if this counts because it’s something I try not to think about. I know it’s probably silly. When I was younger me and my neighbors were very close. I was maybe 5 or 6 years old and my neighbors youngest daughter would come over on certain days. Normal things for a while. One day she told me she wanted to try something and she grinded against my lap and I just let her do it. I’m not really sure why. Eventually it escalated (through many months) to her touching and playing with my penis and I never stopped it. Life went on, and I eventually forgot about it. Until it all came back one day. I still want to ask why she did it.