i miss my older self...she just shattered my ego

My BPD ex admitted to going off (or having her IUD taken out), and thus we were having sex for over a year with no protection at all.

Obviously, I was upset to hear this-- she brushed it off as she knew her body "timing/clock/whatever" and we were totally safe.

Later she re-canted this, and said she was just joking. She was lying.

She also told me the reason she had the IUD taken out was because she got pregnant with the IUD, an ectopic pregnancy, which had to be terminated. Which she recanted. Said she was joking.

BPD chicks are drawn to the concept of having a child-- more so than any normal woman with healthy sex drive and desire for motherhood.

They have this predisposition in terms of their view on life that a baby will save them, because, BPDs fear more than anything is abandonment.

This is also why most of the time the BPD is the dumper and not the dumpee. They have many options lined up, groomed, ready to go. Exes are kept on the back burners. They keep their options open. And as soon as intimacy becomes too real or too close. Wham. You will be canned.

The moment I basically shattered my ex's mask (calling her out for the compulsive liar she was, telling her just how it was)... I was shocked. She said "you're right".

I think there was a small moment of clarity there. And she realized the game was up. So was our relationship. She started cheating on me shortly after, sleeping around, and within a few months, I found out, and was given the boot lol.

She made a comment once that she kept my sperm frozen in the freezer. That she went in the bathroom after sex, retrieved it, and kept it.

I shit you not, I would not put it past her. She was literally insane.

/r/BPDlovedones Thread Parent