Hmm, well I never killed or raped anyone. But I have said some very terrible things to people. I’m always pushing people away. I constantly bet on the wrong person. I fall in love too easily. I don’t know how to deal with my emotions so I go to rage immediately when I’m confused by the emotions. I used to sell drugs and rip people off. I used to steal and burgle homes. I used to treat women really poorly and disrespectfully. I have mental issues like crazy and maybe even more I don’t know about. And that’s what I can think of.

I used to be angry at the kids and adults who would treat me poorly and talk badly to me but nowadays I think they saw something I didn’t. I think they were right to do what they did. I think they were trying to stop a great evil. I think they should’ve done more harm and maybe I would’ve turned out different. I wish I was a ghost. Able to see the world but be unaffected by it. I hope I can muster the courage and conviction to shoot myself this Christmas.