I'm glad you brought up drinking. I drink 2 bottles of wine a night and smoke about 3 dozen bongs.
Trust me, I drink for me.
I also drink because this world is a horror-show. An upsetting, disturbing horror show that I WILL NOT SURVIVE.
One of these days my heart will stop and I will have to die. It could disease. It could be a car accident.
I'm BORED. I don't see a reason I NEED to be alive. There are 8 billion people already.
Plus, it's annoying being alive. I have to go to work. I have to poop every day. I lose my keys.
It's all very undignified and I'm wondering what I'm doing here.
I'm also wondering why being alive is better than being dead.
I don't think you're smart enough to come up with an answer to that.