Somehow my mom and I have become really out of touch for the last 4 years if I'm being honest with myself. It was a lot of little things. She moved states away to follow her dreams, which I totally supported but she's always been bad about calling. I got divorced two years ago and she was barely there for me. She rarely called or asked if I was okay. She's the type that won't ask you about yourself. I can't count the amount of 30 minute calls that are just an update on her life. And she's changed. She's super wrapped up in her own life. Seems to create drama, or find it. She got married after dating this guy for six months. I found out they were engaged on Facebook. They hadn't set a date, then suddenly I found out they were married. On Facebook. She told me she gave up on her parents, who are in their 80s and were one of the reasons she moved to where she did. Grandpa had a stroke and grandma has Alzheimer's so her words were more or less "why bother." She didn't call me on my birthday a few weeks ago. She last called me in February although I've called her since.

This is not who she was when I was growing up. We were so close. I realize this isn't anywhere near as bad as some mother daughter relationships but it hurts a lot. I feel like I'm not worth it to her. I'm not as fun as her new life. I feel like she doesn't care anymore. Like she's moved on. Like she gave up on being a mom. I don't care that I'm 29 I need my mom.

This goes both ways, it does, but it's hard to feel like someone wants you in your life and wants you to call when they literally never make an effort.