Why do I put up with it? I always think that she'll change. Sally what happens is we make plans to hang out and then when we meet up she's a bitch to me the entire time. I'll be upset and go home and we won't speak at all for weeks or months. Then she'll ask me to hang out. The feeling of upset has past since it's been months and I think that she's changed because it's been months and she's asking me to hang out so that means she's changed right? Of course I'm wrong and we hang and she's a bitch and then I get mad at myself for spending time with her and then we go back to not talking for months and the cycle starts all over again.

I think I also hang out with her because I want answers and closure or something like that. I want to know why she acts this way to me and only me. She's nasty to my mom bit much worse to me. She is very nice and sweet to friends and aquaintances. her niceness is a little fake. But none of her friends or co workers would ever believe of someone told them the things she has said and done to me.

She texted me a few months ago and we were talking and the. She started insulting me. She told me "see you're annoying and this is why I can't stand you. I don't respect you and you need to work on being more likable and less annoying." A few days ago she yelled at me when I asked for my food to be remade at a restaurant because they put lettice on my food even after I told them I was very allergic. Later that evening I asked her why she insulted me about that. She told me "you are a spoiled princess and you need to get the fuck over your weird little allergy. I just don't like your attitude and I don't like you. But I still want you in my life because your my sister and that's just the way it is." This bothered me and I told her no that's not okay and I'm done spending time with someone who not only insults me and screams at me but who tells me they don't respect me and don't like me. It's been a few days of no contact but im feeling good about it. My life has been going really well so I think this will be good for me and my health. Having someone constantly I silts you and make you feel lke you're always doing soenthing wrong is very me tally framing and I can't handle it anymore. Sorry this was so long!