No, I think maybe you are assuming another country. I just need some intrinsic motivation to go on and face the threat with reason. I am thinking of going to a therapist. They are costly here but I think now I have to because I am going crazy. I used to have panic attacks like crazy and I was on meds, clonazepam, escitallopram etc. I quit because it was difficult to concentrate on studies because of the meds, I felt sleepy and dizzy.

Even now I still get attacks every now and then. Speaking of getting justice through legal means, it would take maybe 10-15 years here due to bureaucratic processes here, i am not certain. So it is a wastage of time and money which I do not have.

I am a lonely person. I do not have friends because of my depressing personality I think. So that does not help.